Nicki Minaj Says Pregnancy And Abortion 'Haunted Me All My Life', Rapper Opens Up About Losing Child

Rapper Nicki Minaj opened up about her teenage pregnancy and abortion in an interview with Rolling Stones.

 "I was a teenager. It was the hardest thing I'd ever gone through," she added that the experience "haunted me all my life." 

The 32-year-old admitted that she wasn't ready for a child at a young age, which led to her decision to terminate her child, "It'd be contradictory if I said I wasn't pro-choice. I wasn't ready. I didn't have anything to offer a child."

Celebrating her release of The Pinkprint, Nicki became raw about her emotion and past despite previously addressing her abortion on mixtape Autobiography, which she thought would have gone unheard,  "Millions of people are gonna hear it. And you gotta watch everything you say," she continued. "People find an issue with every f*cking thing."

In the new track  "All Things Go," the 32-year-old brought fans into the darkest places filled with death and love lost within her pink kingdom.

Nicki admitted to losing a child as a teenager, "My child with Aaron, would've have been sixteen, any minute."

In another line, the rapper opened up about her engagement with Safaree admitting to their current split, "Ten years ago, that's when you proposed/I look down, yes I suppose."

While the singer has kept her family life private, she admits to having regrets after losing a family member, "

"I lost my little cousin to a senseless act of violence...Cause since I got fame, they don't act the same."

The deep track isn't a surprise to fans who witnessed the star openly talk about her near-death experience during her acceptance speech at the 2014 BET Awards.

"The other day, literally I didn't tell anybody this, I really thought I was about to die. Like, I was saying my prayers to die. And I didn't even want to call the ambulance because I thought, 'Well if I call the ambulance, it's going to be on TMZ,"' she said, "And I would rather sit there and die," she added. "And it made me realize I don't care what anybody got to say. I'm going to do me."