'RHONJ’ Melissa Gorga, Joe Gorga Divorce: Reality Star Reveals Past Infidelities That Almost Ruined Marriage In Tell All Book

The Real Housewives of New Jersey reality star, Melissa Gorga has admitted that she almost ruined her relationship over her dark past and insecurities.

In her the realty star's new book, Love Italian Style: The Secrets of My Hot and Happy Marriage, the mother of three admitted that she didn't trust her husband Joe Gorga based off her late father, Anthony Marco's infidelities before his tragic death on March 29, 1986.

Melissa wrote, "My father died driving in the middle of the night on personal business that my mother and I knew nothing about," she writes. "...He had disappeared before. Many, many times."

 She added that her father was no different than any young man "Like all young men, my father liked to party," she reveals. "But he didn't want to do it with his wife. A wife was supposed to stay home, care for the kids and make dinner," she continues. "A good woman didn't run wild. So when the urge to run wild hit my father, he went elsewhere to chase it."

Because of her parent's unfaithful marriage, the reality star lived those memories within hen own marriage and believed her Joe would do the same, "I would still get suspicious about Joe, despite his seemingly loyal behavior," she reveals. "...If Joe said he was going out on a Sunday morning to do estimates on properties, I'd always question it in my mind. My father was a builder too. He used to say the same things to my mother. And then we wouldn't see him until Tuesday."

Melissa admitted that Joe wasn't happy of being questioned and not trusted during their early stages of their marriage until he understood where she was getting her insecurities from once she "worked up the courage to reveal the whole truth to Joe." She continued, "That day was a real turning point in our relationship," she writes. "He already knew my father died in a car accident. Then I told him the rest: his infidelities, disappearing acts, the distrust that lingered in my heart. ... I'd never told another man so much about myself. I realized that confiding in Joe was a sign that I did trust him."