Jennifer Lopez Abuse Shocker: 'Booty' Singer Writes In New Book She's Been 'Abused In One Way Or Another,' Also Talks Marriage To Marc Anthony Falling Apart!

Jennifer Lopez is one of the most beautiful women in the world, but the American Idol judge has had a dark past that has made her into who she is today.

In her new book True Love, she says she was battered, but not in a physical way.

"I've never gotten a black eye or a busted lip, but I've felt abused in one way or another: mentally, emotionally, verbally," she detailed in the book. "I know what it feels like for your soul to be diminished by the way your loved one is treating you ..."

The "Booty" singer doesn't mention who the abuser was, but she overcame the tough experience.

Jennifer also describes the instant she realized her marriage to singer Marc Anthony was over.

"As I sat there getting made up, my heart was beating out of my chest and I felt like I couldn't breathe ... I became consumed with anxiety," she wrote, referring to the panic attack she was having. "What was happening to me? I leaped from my chair and said to my dear manager Benny Medina, 'Benny, something is happening! I feel like I'm going crazy.'"

"It was one of those moments when you're so scared you can't even scream. In a blur of fear and panic, I looked at Benny and my mother and blurted out the words: 'I don't think I can be with Marc anymore.' Then I burst into tears," she continued.

The Selena star, who has two kids, Max and Emme, with the "My Baby You" singer, wants people to know that her glamorous life wasn't so glamorous after all.

"Anybody looking from the outside in would have thought my life was great. I had a husband and two beautiful children. I was on American Idol and my new single ''On the Floor'' had gone to number one all over the world," according to the book. "What people didn't know was that life really wasn't that good. My relationship was falling apart and I was terrified."

What do you think of JLo's struggles in the book?

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