Nicole Scherzinger: Bulimia Secret Addiction of X Factor UK Judge [VIDEO]

Nicole Scherzinger suffered from bulimia during her days in the Pussycat Dolls.  The 34-year-old singer made the confession in VH1's Behind The Music series that will air October 7, 2012.  She told VH1 that she had hidden the problem from family, friends and everyone around her with the fear to hurt her loved ones.

"I hated myself. I really was so disgusted with myself and so embarrassed. I felt so alone. I was in a group, and I never felt so alone in my life," the X Factor uK judge said.

"Every time I had a second to be alone, I was doing something to myself. You get, like, blisters on your hands or scars on your hands, and I'd try to hide those. I think the girls could tell."

This is Scherzinger's first time opening up about the eating disorder that she has struggled with for so long.  

"It's embarrassing. I never spoke about it. Like I said, I never want to play a victim, and I never wanted my family to hear about things from me because I think it would break their heart, you know. I guess it was like my addiction, right? I never did drugs, but kinda doing things to myself was my addiction. It's like when I got offstage, I was on this high, and I'd come back to my room and I'd be alone, so I would just do things. My bulimia was my addiction; hurting myself was my addiction."

Lady Gaga recently revealed her struggle with the eat disorder on little monsters.com after being criticized for her recent weight gain.  The pop star began a campaign called Body Revolution 2013 to encourage people to embrace their figures and not let others put them down.